This post is going to be a quick and strange one as I don’t really know what I want to say, or even why I’m sitting here typing it, so bare with me.
Today is Wednesday and my anxiety is feeling out of control, the kids have been back at school now for four days and some kind of grey cloud has come over me and I don’t know why? I’ve been waiting for the day that they can go back to school, to socialise, to learn and mainly to show them that the world isn’t actually falling apart like the media is trying to show us. Yes we have to be more careful; but we do not have to live in fear every single day.
Today’s children seem to have more anxiety and depression then children of any other generation even before Covid-19, but what’s causing it? Is it really social media and computer games? Is it too much TV? Is it that more and more parents have to work and kids are rushed from one place to another without time to just be? Is it because many children are unable to play outside like generations before did? I really don’t know.
What I do know is that today I miss my children being home with me, asking me a question every five minutes, only needing the toilet when I’m already on there and refusing to get dressed in anything other than a onesie. I miss eating lunch with them, cuddling them while watching some shit Australian gymnastics programme and honestly; I think I miss the excuse not to be able to study.
Ive tried really hard today to try and do some work but I keep finding myself daydreaming and worrying about my daughter. Is she ok now? Have the tears from this morning changed to laughing with her friends?Will she try and pretend she’s ill every single day? I really hope not, I hope the day goes fast for her and she comes out with the biggest smile on her face.
So instead of being annoyed with myself for wasting a day today, I’m going to draw a line under it and say tomorrow is another day. I’m going to try and be more gentle with myself and I’m going to dig out my EFT handbook and tap myself back to calmness.
I hope you are all having a beautiful day, but if not don’t worry, tomorrow is another day.